dualEntropy

In 2024 I got serious about my YouTube channel. Before that I used to make and post a video here and there when the mood struck me. However, as my new years resolution in 2024, i decided to give youtube a good try. I decided that at the end of every month, i would post 1 video. The thinking was that it would give me a while month to make the video.  Unfortunately I would squander the month away and rush to make the video in the final week of the month, sometimes even the final day. But somehow I managed to post every month for the whole year, surprising even myself. It was real close sometimes, believe me. In times of extreme laziness, I told myself to post a trash video just to keep the streak alive. I thank myself for that decision every day. Because this whole youtube project gave me something much more valuable than the videos themselves.  The views and subscribers and watching the numbers go up is a good feeling, don't get me wrong. But what I got most from the year of Yo...

Its a powerful idea that I came across. I suppose it's a branch of positive thinking. Instead of worrying about what could go wrong, it makes you consider what if it all goes right? To do a realistic analysis of any decision we must consider both positive and negative. Our brains are great at the negative part. Due to the evolutionary advantage, it's much safer to consider the negatives and take the safer path. But it does have the consequence of not considering the positive of the decision. What if the positive of it is so great that it outweighs the negative? What if the fear of failure is blinding me to the fruits of the rewards? What if I've been living too safely? What if I win?   This does not mean one closes their eyes to the consequences of failure. But merely an ask to open your eyes to the consequences of success.   Theres this amazing quote I read in the book "Why we sleep" by Matthew Walker. I'm paraphrasing here but it goes something like this   ...

Why bother with this blog? It's 2025. No one reads blogs anymore. Well, no one reads anymore let alone a blog. I suppose the death of blogs can be attributed to Twitter/x.com. micro blogging is the way blogging went and now people's attention span is too small to read anything longer anyway. Not everyone, not all the time obviously but most people, most of the time prefer getting the information as quick as possible. I also am guilty of it, no doubt but at least I'm doing something about it. This blog is a cool time capsule of the stuff I was into. Every time I read an older post, I cringe at myself though. It seems like a different person altogether. But at the same time, feels more true. More honest, more authentic. Will I feel the same about this post? Will I keep posting? Idk but let me get back to why in making this post in the first place. I want a place on the internet for myself. I don't want to worry about recommendation algorithms, SEOs, CEOs, censorship, disc...

Haven't seen one since I cut the cable. But here's one anyway Subscribe to my YouTube channel.  https://youtube.com/@dualentropy - B1ackRoseRose

I really don't do this very often. I always start but never finish. I don't even know why I started this blog to be honest. But I guess it's a good place to put down my thoughts when there's no one to listen to them. Yeah, kinda hard to find people to talk to at 3 am. I also hope that this is a good exercise in putting my thoughts down to writing. I always have a lot going on in my head. But I find it hard to put them into words. Usually because of either lack of works or the fact that I am very conscious about what I say or write. As an example I thought the previous sentence over 20 times before putting it into words and I'm still not satisfied with it. Also it is a problem when my brain jumps to another topic altogether before I even finish a sentence. Yeah, yeah. I got a lot of issues. I could just sit here and describe them. Or I could do something to solve it. One problem I have with putting my thoughts into words is the fear of being criticised by people. ...

I have started playing Pokemon Crystal on my phone through some completely legal means. *wink wink* I had only played the gold version before but hadn't completed it so I thought I'd pick up crystal version because I like the 2nd generation of Pokemon and didn't wanna replay gold. My cousin sister's over at my place and she was annoying me to let her game on my phone. I don't like a lot of modern games *cough*candycrush*cough* and my phone's too crappy to play good ones, but I did have SNES and Gameboy emulators (obtained through totally leagal sources of course) . And I thought what better than 90s games for a kid to play. In my opinion the old Nintendo games are far superior than a lot of modern mobile *cough*candycrush*cough* games. I may sound like a cranky old man, but it just seems a lot of mobile games are just making kids dumber. So anyways, she wanted to play so I booted up the good old Legend of Zelda: The Link to the Past. After thoroughly enjoyin...